By Fahima Zahir
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a soul that's crushed in its endeavours that yet rises again like the tireless phoenix in front of a lover's gaze that breathes fire into it and breathes the breath of life from the intrusion of strangers i sought your presence like those that seek our souls to have i yearned for yours to have and to hold within this same vessel but i saw you through clouded shrouds of separation and i saw in your longing gaze a desolation alone we sit in our self-made crosses and listen to those who sing our songs and sing with empty hearts while yours i longed to have and to hold and i saw in it your longing gaze i walk the blinding sun that veils the sight and embraces with its heat and its rays take hold of me and we dreamt of promises made and promises sought; -all to be entertained in the mind, like rolls of film rewound to exhaustion i saw your face in every direction and i saw that longing gaze the machineries of a restless mind that runs its creaking wheels i sought for shelter in your body feeling its weight under me now above now against me now in me the body desires and longs.. for disclosure and for what it cannot seek i sought and in it i found your longing gaze that stared with expressionless eyes that betrayed the longing questions that turn into answers for answers that turn into more questions the snow that falls in patches that cover this bleeding heart and that taints the whiteness with its red, broken pearls the pearly liquid that drops and with each drop meets its end it tastes bitter and again i am reminded the film rolls scene through scene each moment .. a longing gaze that yearns for its end this world seen without light in the dirt that gives life and that later covers in its timeless shroud. words- they part from the lips forgotten once spoken and images come to mind. fragmented, broken the scent of yesterdays.. i think of the longing gaze the rays of a warm embrace the scent of past memories carefully sheltered amidst time's layers time? it slips away.. love? i feel it in my soul. because from the start you breathed life into me.. age after age.. the turning tide that fed on that longing gaze the rays of a warm embrace and still i thought of you in restless nights my dark tresses wild the jug at my lips grapes bursting with life's juices with eyes that saw beyond your soul and that met your longing gaze.. with a longing forlorn gaze your body now above now beside now under me now in me.. with a longing gaze and the rays of a warm embrace.... |
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